BEST STATEMENT

Everyone comes alone, grows alone, struggles alone, victors alone, cries alone,smiles alone, lives alone, dies alone ! It's sympathetic to look for partner in life in all dimensions of it !

S.O.S ! God damn it !

"First Time i felt gud for ur drinkin habit..atleast i came to kno wat i meant 4 u..nothing..yeah hard to digest 4 me..but yup u said it atlast..afta dat i was still waitin for ua call whole nght.. i ws ready 2 wait for u goin against ma parents..bt nw wat if i cm 2 kno dat, fr whm i was ready to do nething COUNTS me nothing.. m cryin for a person who dun like 2 kno m cryin..BT M STILL CRYIN WAITIN N READY C DO DIS WHOLE LIFE..DATS WAD D TRUTH IS BUDDY "
NOW THATS A message definin ma behaviour widh THE girl. i dun deserve a relationship ! dats wad really feel now.

Man, just touched sofa after headin from Nasik. It was an awesome journey. Tonnes of happenings. i had gone there on 4th and today is d 6th. nice way of changin life's casualistic normal schedule.i was so eager to see one of ma close friend "Amrita" coz i dun even remember weh had i seen her last. i guess it feels like ages... yeah ages. felt gud seein her after such long time ! but the worst part of it,i was drunk ! Man, i drink like hell. there has to be a pause now. but cant help. nways life's gud though.meetin Amrita felt sumthing different. i mean, i dunno.... she's ..um...well she's nice. actually she's betterthan any gurl i have seen on this planet so far. quite a brainy one. she defy's the rule "gurls are either beautiful O' intelligent ". yup really she does. nice human being too ! Hey i met her on a gr8 occasion,i mean it was frndship day. what a kool timing of meetin after gap. bhoy... i luv ma life for this. okhey..okhey.. i still remember what i hafto post here, i.e i lost ma wallet, the 5th time in this life.i m such a irresponsible character. what's gonna happen with me ? wen m i goin to be more careful ? still, bhoy it happens in life. i mean its okay. though i lost eleven hundred bucks plus two credit and 5 debit cards. MAN i've LOST THE PAN CARD TOO.... thats worst ! also the mobile cell phone operator card,business cards, college I.D., girls photographs, life's self earned money first transaction record :(,Ohhhhh i dun want to recollect what else have i lost. It hurts man..... It does hurt a lot ! freakin deep !nways its gud whatever comes outta life. I just hope it falls in the hands of the needy ! Hey God, i'm just talkin bout the CASH.. i'm sorry but i've already blocked the cards. he he he. that's fuckin painin JOKE.Hmmm...returnin back from nasik was a gud journey. i borrowed sum cash from cousin, then got the ticket for dhule.it was same, old , fussy journey by state transport bus. it was so annoyin. i dunno but i got sumthing in ma head. i still dunno what it really was. i beared the bus till a town called CHANDWAD. i got down there. had a cup of tea. walked a little, enjoyed the climate. n hey m proud of maself for wad i did next. actualy its a fourlane road now. i had a stance on opposite ends of the road for the traffic n as soon as i got chance, i did PEE on the middle of the road. it feels so comfortableto enjoy these sorta things under open sky. just like snaggergots dipped into melted cheese. then i took lift from truck drivers.those were brand nu TATA trucks. i mean it was just the chasis of truck what i was sittin ON ! airwaves thumped on my face from every possible direction. i still remember the air massage on ma ass from the back of the chasis. WOW it was so lively to enjoy the same old fuckin road by a nu way ! it seemed a whole nu destination. i continued till a village called Umranewhen they truck drivers halted there for lunch. again i went there widh a cup of tea n later again on road widh a thumb up for lift !i stuck maself to a autorickshaw to MALEGAON. it was 37 kilometers journey. here i was enjoyin it atfirst but later i wished if ma buttocks had a layer O' two of cushions ! it got sore so early. man m still havin goosers thinking of it. then from malegaon i boarded a car till way back home. i dunno want to describe the last pit stop... ha ha ha ha it was horrible, yet electrifying ! the whole journey was so brilliant, i mean i never saw so lushy counties of the same road earlier. it was drizzlin in between n so refreshing.. felt like i just dusted ma life with a natural impact ! i luv it... i completed the 154 km journey in record 7hrs 30 mins ! Aint i FANTABULOUS ? oh yeah simply moron !

The White DREAM.

The White Dream !Man, what should i say bout that ? m shattered to tell what kinda freakish dreams i have started to get.Life is like no job as of now, "cherished" break up, bit of more dopes, enjoyin soul bein at home ! So it all began with the break up thing. She lasted for all big five months. i dun want to talk bout her, coz itwill again clarify that i was always wrong ! she's really cute, adorable gurl. actually she was really sumone my type ! i dunno where things went wrong, O' it's like i dun want to kno where n why i went wrong ! b'coz it's always ME, who mess up things : ( It was really hard to cope up with the breakup thing with HER. i never had thought of it. But asusual life always brings what u don't want. She's really gud human being. What i think is i cranked out 80 % n she topped with the remainin 20 % of the misunderstandings ! but......... c'mon its all over. i gotta move on. MAY BE SHE WAS NOT MEANT FOR ME. May be i was not suitin her lifestyle. may be we both were irritatin eachother unknowingly. Nah the last MAY BE could never be the reason for trundle of troubles ! Nways, now bout the dream. I see myself on a small, very small circular island made up of WHITE sand. bluish green water surrounds the circumference. n the bounds of the island are fenced with jail like chain links. It's still so cold to see myself held on that island.And now comes the worst part of it. To feel more like hell i see a bigger island just beside where i was. The realterror strikes now. i saw all my EXs standin in a semi circle show me the midfinger. I was really slogged away bytheir deep peirceing stances. every single gurl now was with life partner o' so called same dumb person like themselves ! @#*@ phew...! why all of a sudden all of them came to see me in my dream. i was sweatin like ruffled towel. Nways, ahead i saw HER. Yes, i mean the recent one. she too was with someone else ! Now this for sure felt me like i was being stuffed to put on for a barbecue. IT DID HURT man. BIG time ! ! i dunno why. but u kno its the dream. so it had to hurt me. I just kept starin both of their hands holdin eachothers. Man this dream really hurt me. when i tried to come close to her to speak i was broken to hear something from her. SHE states me as the biggest loser. i accept it without a jerk ! the last words from her before i woke up were," It's so wierd to SEEthis MORON again". "i thought GOD wouldnt make me see this jerk one more time to feel cursed real hard in life. " Man i couldnt believe SHE really did say those words for me ! nways the end comes near now. Everybody moves in whites around me with their Midfingers quite upright towards me. n I find most ALONE of a lifetime. !!i really think i'm never gonna cherish so called a word "partnership" in this life ! hushhhh...... man i have really started gettin CHILDISH dreams.. time to say the verdict : LOVE AINT FOR ME.IT'S HECTIC. IT'S COMPLICATED. IT'S A LOT MORE FURIOUS THAN IT SEEMS ! really not ma cup of tea.
Remember me whenever you see a sunrise,Remember me whenever you see a star,Remember me whenever you see a rainbowOr woods in autumn colors from afar.
Remember me whenever you see the rosesOr seagulls sailing high in a sky of blue.Remember me whenever you see wavesShining in the sun.And remember, I'll be remembering you!
Remember me whenever you see a teardrop,Or meadows still wet with the morning dew.Remember me whenever you feel loveGrowing in your heart.And remember, I'll be remembering you!

Wow it's been a festive called as "GATORI AMAWASYA". nothin more like it. u kno its like a ban for drinkin n eatin non veg for a whole month called as "SHRAVAN" accordin to hindu calender in INDIA. So, bein a hindu i gotta follow it anyhow ! i feel it difficult to ban drinkin for a whole month. But still considering m just 21 it says its OK to ban for a single whole fuckin month. The contradiction is m just 21 n ma statements doesnt mean i drink every single fuckin DAY. it just means i cant drink weneva i felt to ! Nways its 12:30 AM 2'nd August'08.... n actually the gatori amawasya has been actually started since 4 Hrs. n the metephor is i haf already Drunk like HELL . the best part is m HOME Mom's home father's home. everybody is home n still m DRUNK.. the best of all is no one NO one knos m fuckin DRUNK ! U kno life says m just fuckin outta college, done widh GRAD n got brand Nu wings to FLy in this world ! i dunno wad M gonna do afta ma grads in this fuckin whore kinda world.. still i believe i m gonna survive ANYHOW at the TOP. i feel weneva m put into bad situations, i fight, i struggle, i sumtimes vacate, but find it enough gud to be on top at the END. in ma whole fuckin life wad i haf come to kno is, i haf never invested in right O' proper begnin, but always into finishing touches!thats for sure. i never comply widh how does it start rather than how does it ENd. end always haf a gud point to DEBATE ! it tells u the whole holy shit bout the complicansy of the situations. James blunt's 1973 is gettin me into sum gud mood of writing ! i dunno Y but i luv this GUY. blunt james blunt. really always tries to put sum nu crap of this as same stale as hitlers mess.No one can tell whad a stuff he can come up widh.. thats wad life goes intrestin wen no one knos wads one is gonna come up widh. U kno m drunk n i too kno m drunk....so it doesnt comply widh the rules wad i shud write o wad i m writin in this fuckin tale like POST. It feels gud though to c later how i write afta bein whole trunk size drunk !Ma life is total FAIR like as of now. meetin old mates, loads of PINTS, loads of outdoor eatings. parents sorta gud health, mine gud health, things goin smooth as old RUSSIAN VODKA ! wad the HELL can i ask more for ?as most of the GRADS i feel i lack is money problem. i wish if i had sum more ten thousands of bux to spend left afta ma tution fees bein paid at any fuckin specific unversity.Rite now i want to Post grads into fields of software technology o either into fields of geneti engineerin considering of biochemistry o biofuckintechnology, but i dunnnnnnnn haf enopugh " FUNDS" to flourish ma self wid ma own priorities. i sumtimes awkwardly feel SACHIN TENDULKAR OR SAURAV GANGULY shud some up widh providin widh sum financial AIDS to students like me who wish to soar up in the high skies. No worries i'll later return them the amounts wad i need rite now. but atleast the shud feel like promotin the nu age students to fulfill their dreams. atleast they haf got so much to spare. phewwwwwwwwwww... forget it y shud i think of sumone's help to glitter up ma own career. its ma own thing n i gotta kick up ma self anyhow to claim it as of ma OWN career. i really want to be a SELF MADE MANas i haf always BEEN ! i WANT to earn ma own RADO, ma own OMEGA. seein back i feel m rite on track, just a few furious delicate moments of life to take care of. else everything will run on ma OWN WISH..... SO life u betta WATCH, KID'S on ua pursuit ! ha ha ha ha ha i luv maself so much ! so fuckin.......muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !