ma very nu rules.

1.I have been thru various phases of life...many ups n downs...heart-breaks,backstabbings,pains,hard feelings,grudges,revenge taken on me,coz am innocent in those things...2.Life is short,live it hard...give it your best,god will look up the rest...3.Do not be too generous...to anyone...atleast not always...4.Its too hard to be nice sometimes...just live it the way u can...5.Forgive your so called enemies...coz god doesn't...sometimes...6.Never beleive in love...its just an illusion...7.Do not be dependent on anyone,but let others be...8.Do not keep any expectations in either love or friendship...if done so...the true essense of both are irretrievably lost...9.If,at any point in your life,you feel like you cant trust the words of your dear ones....read thier eyes...coz eyes can never lie...

Does this mean any thing now ?

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you choose
The closet you cannot close
The devil in you I suppose
Cause the wounds never heal

But everything changes if I could
turn back the years, If you could
learn to forgive me, then I could learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real.

But everything changes if I could
turn back the years, If you could
learn to forgive me, then I could learn to feel

When it's just me and you,
Who knows what we could do
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day

Everything changes if I could
Turn back the years, if you could
Learn to forgive me, then I could
Learn how to feel, then we could
Stay here together, and we could
Conquer the world, If we could
Say that forever is more than just a word

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
It wouldn't change how you feel?

OK...its too much now..

Man... m bankrupt...lost girlfriend...lost house..excuse me, situation's not dat bad. i still have a house to live in. but sumwhere i feel everything is going bad, really BAD.Asusual i dunno where m i progressing in ma life rite now. Wait a minute, m i progressing? Dickhead me, very stagnant currently ! I've lost intrest in everything. Everyshit of life seems so dull to me. GREY's everywhere. May be winters inn,dat may be d reason. But a Very no to dat if its d reason. Blueness is in me n not d winter. i feel i need to accept, i m a pessimist ! Yes i m...
Till now since childhood i used to convince maself dat i m not a pessimist...it was sumtimes i used feel low..dat doesnt mean so.. but now i totally feel i m a hard core pessimist ! but i find it a little diffenrent being a pessimist. i haf seen so many Black n white photographs full of meaning.This tells me to use this grey side of ma life into a productive passage of time. i hope i make it possible this time. now-a-days "success" seem a alien word to me. everything i do, i feel, i sense, i get is nothtin but a mere failure. : (
Nways its yet another phase of ma bullshit life full of nothin special but loads of ass sloggin experiences !