Money matters !

When your wallet is full of legal chits of papers at a very young age, you tend to do things outta box. Actually to b more clear, u pursue your " WANTS" more than your "NEEDS" ! yesterday i wen to a biotech lab for gettin DNA structures coz i had to paste them in ma college journal since submissions r comin. Suddenly i saw a board there, " SPERM COUNT DONE" he he he.
Obviously i went for dat !! Man, i was so delighted so c ma COUNT. In there, a healthy population was carryin LIFE flourishingly ! n lastly m so GLAD to kno ," M A FULLY GROWN UP 'MAN' READY TO BREED".

Really miss the sunshine !

Hushhh ! every mornin i wake up supposin MOM's just behind me. I feel m HOME n she is in kitchen makin me a cup of TEA as every morn i xpect her to do. Suddenly i recognise, nah m not HOME, SHE aint here. m still a homesick kid. yes i have to xcept this :(

I strongly feel d aroma of d tea made by her every morn. D breakfast she cooks, OMG its amazing. i wish if i could b a kid forever so dat i could stay around her till d time ends.

Its not like as if i always write bout MOM n not father, i luv him too. but u kno mom is always close to heart. Father.... hmmm i think God has made Fathers strong,little bit unkown bout emotions so dat dey can deal widh outer harsh world, n God made mom more affectionate to emotions to handle inhouse conditions.

Nways i dunno much of it in deep. all i kno is missin u muhmmmy ! i ll definitely go to meet her soon. Cant stay back. JUST CANT !

m i this ?

Really a natural self description, one of ma wram frn has done it .
"I used to be the kind of guyWho'd never let you look insideI'd smile when I was cryingI had nothing but to a lot to loseThought I had a lot to proveIn my life there's no denyingGoodbye to all my yesterdaysGoodbye, so long, I'm on my wayI had enough of crying, bleeding, sweating, dyingHear me when I say, gonna live my life everydayI'm gonna touch the sky, spread these wings and flyI ain't here to playGonna live my life everyday" Supercool, aint it ?

Finally turnin ma self inside out !

hmm i dunno wad m doin rite now in ma life is gud or considered normal or considered bad, but i did d best ever thing in ma life today ! m feeling a weird type of peacefulness today ! a name AKSHAY is added to ma character. just a five year old kid but his eyes r so enchanting, this boy has sumthin , sumthin extraordinary n wen u interact widh him u can surely feel d rush of goodness in ur adultarated viens. i didnt kno how i did this thing today, just was feelin blue n this greyness of ma life has gifted me this little kid. i spent almost five n a half hours widh him. it didnt give me a feeling dat it was ma first time meet widh widh this kid. he fondly kept callin me "CHAITA.....CHAITA", it means brother brother in malyalam.
6,200 rs dats d only amount i spent for a child's secure n proper growth for one year. usually i used to spent money to buy maself happiness... i used go shoppin to feel gud. at d end i still recognise i never felt happy frm inside. its just a materialistic success n nothin else ! u r put in convent school, then u go for best college, then best university, then u get a gud job which pays u widh fat cheques ! but is this d only shit we r grown up to haf, to earn , to be proud of ?????
Wads d real meanin of existence ? lookin inside if i ask ma self, born as a human how many things haf i done in ma life to let me feel real HUMAN ? from 21 yrs of this life , "just ONE" comes d answer.
m really puzzled, which way to choose. One leadin too glamourous, materialistic success. n d other i dunno !
But thing is sure, d name AKSHAY 's really gonna change ME.

i feel m still young !

hmmmm its like paradox yeah !

last verdict !

Gurlfrnds are the dummest species on this holy planet ! they ruin u, emotionally n financially as well ! M out of it for ever !