LOST

an eternal sorrow,

an eternal pain,

cluded by self doubt,

lost;

wandering in the mist laden woods.

dense white mist everywhere,

the cold,the pain

the silence.

want to escape;but how?

when the mist clears,

when the silence dies,

when i am found dead,

in the woods remember me!

remember me!

lay a flower on my tomb;for

i thought of thy on death,

i thought of thy on death,

i thought of thy on death.

Somebody's Me

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else


Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths will soon cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts


Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please


Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me

Six Sigma is a business management strategy, originally developed by Motorola, that today enjoys wide-spread application in many sectors of industry.
Six Sigma seeks to identify and remove the causes of defects and errors in manufacturing and business processes.[1] It uses a set of quality management methods, including statistical methods, and creates a special infrastructure of people within the organization ("Black Belts" etc.) who are experts in these methods.[1] Each Six Sigma project carried out within an organization follows a defined sequence of steps and has quantified financial targets (cost reduction or profit increase).[1]
Contents[hide]
1 Historical overview
1.1 Origin and meaning of the term "six sigma process"
1.1.1 The role of the 1.5 sigma shift
1.1.2 Sigma levels
2 Methodology
2.1 DMAIC
2.2 DMADV
3 Implementation roles
4 Quality management tools and methodologies used in Six Sigma
5 Software used for Six Sigma
6 List of Six Sigma companies
7 Reception
7.1 Lack of originality
7.2 Role of consultants
7.3 Studies that indicate negative effects caused by Six Sigma
7.4 Based on arbitrary standards
7.5 Criticism of the 1.5 sigma shift
8 Notes
9 Literature
10 See also
11 External links
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[edit] Historical overview
Six Sigma was originally developed as a set of practices designed to improve manufacturing processes and eliminate defects, but its application was subsequently extended to other types of business processes as well.[2] In Six Sigma, a defect is defined as anything that could lead to customer dissatisfaction.[1]
The particulars of the methodology were first formulated by Bill Smith at Motorola in 1986.[3] Six Sigma was heavily inspired by six preceding decades of quality improvement methodologies such as quality control, TQM, and Zero Defects, based on the work of pioneers such as Shewhart, Deming, Juran, Ishikawa, Taguchi and others.
Like its predecessors, Six Sigma asserts that –
Continuous efforts to achieve stable and predictable process results (i.e. reduce process variation) are of vital importance to business success.
Manufacturing and business processes have characteristics that can be measured, analyzed, improved and controlled.
Achieving sustained quality improvement requires commitment from the entire organization, particularly from top-level management.
Features that set Six Sigma apart from previous quality improvement initiatives include –
A clear focus on achieving measurable and quantifiable financial returns from any Six Sigma project.[1]
An increased emphasis on strong and passionate management leadership and support.[1]
A special infrastructure of "Champions," "Master Black Belts," "Black Belts," etc. to lead and implement the Six Sigma approach.[1]
A clear commitment to making decisions on the basis of verifiable data, rather than assumptions and guesswork.[1]
The term "Six Sigma" is derived from a field of statistics known as process capability studies. Originally, it referred to the ability of manufacturing processes to produce a very high proportion of output within specification. Processes that operate with "six sigma quality" over the short term are assumed to produce long-term defect levels below 3.4 defects per million opportunities (DPMO).[4][5] Six Sigma's implicit goal is to improve all processes to that level of quality or better.
Six Sigma is a registered service mark and trademark of Motorola, Inc.[6] Motorola has reported over US$17 billion in savings[7] from Six Sigma as of 2006.
Other early adopters of Six Sigma who achieved well-publicized success include Honeywell International (previously known as Allied Signal) and General Electric, where the method was introduced by Jack Welch.[8] By the late 1990s, about two-thirds of the Fortune 500 organizations had begun Six Sigma initiatives with the aim of reducing costs and improving quality.[9]
In recent years, Six Sigma has sometimes been combined with lean manufacturing to yield a methodology named Lean Six Sigma.

Graph of the normal distribution, which underlies the statistical assumptions of the Six Sigma model. The Greek letter σ marks the distance on the horizontal axis between the mean, µ, and the curve's point of inflection. The greater this distance is, the greater is the spread of values encountered. For the curve shown in red above, µ = 0 and σ = 1. The other curves illustrate different values of µ and σ.

[edit] Origin and meaning of the term "six sigma process"
The following outlines the statistical background of the term Six Sigma.
Sigma (the lower-case Greek letter σ) is used to represent the standard deviation (a measure of variation) of a statistical population. The term "six sigma process" comes from the notion that if one has six standard deviations between the mean of a process and the nearest specification limit, there will be practically no items that fail to meet the specifications.[5] This is based on the calculation method employed in a process capability study.
In a capability study, the number of standard deviations between the process mean and the nearest specification limit is given in sigma units. As process standard deviation goes up, or the mean of the process moves away from the center of the tolerance, fewer standard deviations will fit between the mean and the nearest specification limit, decreasing the sigma number.[5]

[edit] The role of the 1.5 sigma shift
Experience has shown that in the long term, processes usually do not perform as well as they do in the short.[5] As a result, the number of sigmas that will fit between the process mean and the nearest specification limit is likely to drop over time, compared to an initial short-term study.[5] To account for this real-life increase in process variation over time, an empirically-based 1.5 sigma shift is introduced into the calculation.[10][5] According to this idea, a process that fits six sigmas between the process mean and the nearest specification limit in a short-term study will in the long term only fit 4.5 sigmas – either because the process mean will move over time, or because the long-term standard deviation of the process will be greater than that observed in the short term, or both.[5]
Hence the widely accepted definition of a six sigma process is one that produces 3.4 defective parts per million opportunities (DPMO).[11] This is based on the fact that a process that is normally distributed will have 3.4 parts per million beyond a point that is 4.5 standard deviations above or below the mean (one-sided capability study).[5] So the 3.4 DPMO of a "Six Sigma" process in fact corresponds to 4.5 sigmas, namely 6 sigmas minus the 1.5 sigma shift introduced to account for long-term variation.[5] This is designed to prevent underestimation of the defect levels likely to be encountered in real-life operation.[5]

[edit] Sigma levels
Taking the 1.5 sigma shift into account, short-term sigma levels correspond to the following long-term DPMO values (one-sided):
One Sigma = 690,000 DPMO = 31% efficiency
Two Sigma = 308,000 DPMO = 69.2% efficiency
Three Sigma = 66,800 DPMO = 93.32% efficiency
Four Sigma = 6,210 DPMO = 99.379% efficiency
Five Sigma = 230 DPMO = 99.977% efficiency
Six Sigma = 3.4 DPMO = 99.9997% efficiency

[edit] Methodology
Six Sigma has two key methodologies: [9] DMAIC and DMADV, both inspired by Deming's Plan-Do-Check-Act Cycle. DMAIC is used to improve an existing business process; DMADV is used to create new product or process designs.[9]

[edit] DMAIC
The basic methodology consists of the following five steps:
Define process improvement goals that are consistent with customer demands and the enterprise strategy.
Measure key aspects of the current process and collect relevant data.
Analyze the data to verify cause-and-effect relationships. Determine what the relationships are, and attempt to ensure that all factors have been considered.
Improve or optimize the process based upon data analysis using techniques like Design of Experiments.
Control to ensure that any deviations from target are corrected before they result in defects. Set up pilot runs to establish process capability, move on to production, set up control mechanisms and continuously monitor the process.

[edit] DMADV
The basic methodology consists of the following five steps:
Define design goals that are consistent with customer demands and the enterprise strategy.
Measure and identify CTQs (characteristics that are Critical To Quality), product capabilities, production process capability, and risks.
Analyze to develop and design alternatives, create a high-level design and evaluate design capability to select the best design.
Design details, optimize the design, and plan for design verification. This phase may require simulations.
Verify the design, set up pilot runs, implement the production process and hand it over to the process owners.
DMADV is also known as DFSS, an abbreviation of "Design For Six Sigma".[9]

[edit] Implementation roles
One of the key innovations of Six Sigma is the professionalizing of quality management functions. Prior to Six Sigma, quality management in practice was largely relegated to the production floor and to statisticians in a separate quality department. Six Sigma borrows martial arts ranking terminology to define a hierarchy (and career path) that cuts across all business functions and a promotion path straight into the executive suite.
Six Sigma identifies several key roles for its successful implementation.[12]
Executive Leadership includes the CEO and other members of top management. They are responsible for setting up a vision for Six Sigma implementation. They also empower the other role holders with the freedom and resources to explore new ideas for breakthrough improvements.
Champions are responsible for Six Sigma implementation across the organization in an integrated manner. The Executive Leadership draws them from upper management. Champions also act as mentors to Black Belts.
Master Black Belts, identified by champions, act as in-house coaches on Six Sigma. They devote 100% of their time to Six Sigma. They assist champions and guide Black Belts and Green Belts. Apart from statistical tasks, their time is spent on ensuring consistent application of Six Sigma across various functions and departments.
Black Belts operate under Master Black Belts to apply Six Sigma methodology to specific projects. They devote 100% of their time to Six Sigma. They primarily focus on Six Sigma project execution, whereas Champions and Master Black Belts focus on identifying projects/functions for Six Sigma.
Green Belts are the employees who take up Six Sigma implementation along with their other job responsibilities. They operate under the guidance of Black Belts.

[edit] Quality management tools and methodologies used in Six Sigma
Six Sigma makes use of a great number of established quality management methods that are also used outside of Six Sigma. The following table shows an overview of the main methods used.
5 Whys
Analysis of variance
ANOVA Gage R&R
Axiomatic design
Business process mapping
Catapult exercise on variability
Cause & effects diagram (also known as fishbone or Ishikawa diagram)
Chi-square test of independence and fits
Control chart
Correlation
Cost-benefit analysis
CTQ tree
Customer survey through use of Enterprise Feedback Management (EFM) systems
Design of experiments
Failure mode and effects analysis
General linear model
Histograms
Homogeneity of variance
Pareto chart
Pick chart
Process capability
Regression analysis
Root cause analysis
Run charts
SIPOC analysis (Suppliers, Inputs, Process, Outputs, Customers)
Stratification
Taguchi methods
Thought process map
TRIZ

[edit] Software used for Six Sigma
Main article: List of Six Sigma software packages

[edit] List of Six Sigma companies
Main article: List of Six Sigma companies

[edit] Reception
Six Sigma has made a huge impact on industry and is widely employed as a business strategy for achieving and sustaining operational and service excellence.[1] However, there have also been various criticisms of Six Sigma.

[edit] Lack of originality
Noted quality expert Joseph Juran has described Six Sigma as "a basic version of quality improvement," stating that "[t]here is nothing new there. It includes what we used to call facilitators. They've adopted more flamboyant terms, like belts with different colors. I think that concept has merit to set apart, to create specialists who can be very helpful. Again, that's not a new idea. The American Society for Quality long ago established certificates, such as for reliability engineers."[13]

[edit] Role of consultants
The use of "Black Belts" as itinerant change agents is controversial as it has created a cottage industry of training and certification. Six Sigma is often oversold by consulting firms that claim expertise in Six Sigma when they in fact only have a rudimentary understanding of the tools and techniques and the Six Sigma approach.[1]
The expansion of the various "Belts" to include "Green Belts," "Master Black Belts" and "Gold Belts" is commonly seen as a parallel to the various "belt factories" that exist in martial arts.[citation needed]

[edit] Studies that indicate negative effects caused by Six Sigma
A Fortune article stated that "of 58 large companies that have announced Six Sigma programs, 91 percent have trailed the S&P 500 since." The statement is attributed to "an analysis by Charles Holland of consulting firm Qualpro (which espouses a competing quality-improvement process)."[14] The gist of the article is that Six Sigma is effective at what it is intended to do, but that it is "narrowly designed to fix an existing process" and does not help in "coming up with new products or disruptive technologies." Many of these claims have been argued as being in error or ill-informed.[15][16]
A Business Week article says that James McNerney's introduction of Six Sigma at 3M may have had the effect of stifling creativity. It cites two Wharton School professors who say that Six Sigma leads to incremental innovation at the expense of blue-sky work.[17]

[edit] Based on arbitrary standards
While 3.4 defects per million opportunities might work well for certain products/processes, it might not be ideal or cost-effective for others. A pacemaker might need higher standards, for example, whereas a direct mail advertising campaign might need lower ones. The basis and justification for choosing 6 as the number of standard deviations is not clearly explained.[18] In addition, the Six Sigma model assumes that the process data always conform to the normal distribution. The calculation of defect rates for situations where the normal distribution model does not apply is not properly addressed in the current Six Sigma literature.[1]

[edit] Criticism of the 1.5 sigma shift
Because of its arbitrary nature, the 1.5 sigma shift has been dismissed as "goofy" by the statistician Donald J. Wheeler.[19] Its universal applicability is seen as doubtful.[1]
The 1.5 sigma shift has also been contentious because it results in stated "sigma levels" that reflect short-term rather than long-term performance: a process that has long-term defect levels corresponding to 4.5 sigma performance is, by Six Sigma convention, described as a "6 sigma process."[5][20] The accepted Six Sigma scoring system thus cannot be equated to actual normal distribution probabilities for the stated number of standard deviations, and this has been a key bone of contention about how Six Sigma measures are defined.[20] The fact that it is rarely explained that a "6 sigma" process will have long-term defect rates corresponding to 4.5 sigma performance rather than actual 6 sigma performance has led several commentators to express the opinion that Six Sigma is a confidence trick.[5]

What should I say about this?

At first I would like to recollect, its ma first Ganesh festival celebration after 4 years. The reason is since I was not present in Maharashtra due to completion of ma Grads in Karnataka State, This is ma first time enjoying the festive along then. Ahoy! It feels so living to see those ganesh mandals, those electrifying “Kaaryakartas”, hair raiser decorations and above all tones n really tones of seeing girls who came along to visit various ganesh mandals! There is nothing like it. Absolutely Beautiful environment at this specific time of year.This year ma colony residents decided to reside Ganesh Idol on the main crossroad. Looking back I still remember ma colony residents have been always come first to celebrate this kinda festive through out the year like ganesh festive, Navratri, Gokulastami, etc. But since last three four years due to some residents death n all other mishaps our Mandal couldn’t place any event of any sort. So those were really soggy years I still feel. But this year it feels so awakening, cozza arrangement of placing ganesh idol again on ma favorite crossroad of ma town. This year we have placed an idol of seven n half feet tall and its so cute n adorable. How can anyone feel better than this afta such a long time! I just luv it man.
So, now comes the real story. One of ma closest friend “bhatya” came to ma place n argued for a visit to all town mandals decoration. As usual I denied at first. But later I found it quite irritating to misconduct him. Then I got stride on his super kool “M80” sorta scooter sorta moped sorta bike. Later I found it nothing but a yawning ride. Then we came to a Mandal called as “Bhagwa chowk mirtra Mandal”. This year what I explored is all mandals were in competition to organize a well settled live performance by Mandal Kaaryakartas. Pin pointing at this Mandal, they were performing a “NAATAK” named ‘ganesh raaya bharat varsha vachavaya’. At first it seemed nothing but a simple orthodox play. But when I saw the ‘sutradhaar’ I mean it’s the anchor of the play. It was a gurl. She’s fairer than average, cat eyes, actually Hazel eyes! She may be just half a feet shorter than me. I guess her shorter than half a feet to me. Then, sorta little bit light brown streax in middle brown hair. Hair till lower neck. Free ear lobes. Gorgeous nose up point. So authentically carved Hips! Stunning feet. Much more than complex expressions while playing a defined role. Full throttled energy while dancing, extremely cute movements while leaving the stage. Extremely cute nah actually I feel I have really never seen a gurl widh such cute movements in this life. She was in pure Marathi ethnic dress up. She had worn a naavvari sari! I remember it was maroon colored. And a lovely ornament called “NATH” on the nose. It’s like a nose ring. Basically a longed version of it. It’s made up of pearls n gold widh a shinning star on top of it! She looked sooooooooooooo beautiful. I really couldn’t believe I could ever notice a gurl as perfect as HER. She seemed nothing but a perfect bride to me. But now comes the fuckin best part of this lovely stance share between her n me. I was completely drowned in just staring at her. Bhoy she caught me while doing so. She took me noticing, though I was covered in a whole herd of other animals called people. Ma heart beat skipped forty fifty beats! Really. Then she kept noticing me in between the play again n again. I did the same. I felt sumthing weird here. I was luvin it though!Now I wanted to check if she was really checkin me out. Today is the second day I went to same Mandal n stared here like a wild stag again. At beginning I was at ma usual place. She saw me! Quickly her expressions were deeper. Much more living. She was I can say ACTIVE. The thing came to ma mind was, I felt she was just waiting for ma arrival. Seeing me she looked so enthralled. I want to make a mark here. I REALLY LUVED HER WAY OF ANTICIPATIN ME. I just felt there was none but just me n her on the stage. Same freaking exactly like bollywood. I kept lookin at her widh out missing a blink of an eye. She did the same whenever she got chance. I loved those moments from the bottom of ma heart! I don’t even remember how the first time of the play ended. I kept lookin at her n that’s it. Today I was widh ma best mate “Sumba”. I had told him bout the nicehap, a day before. So he had accompanied me to analyze it. He made it affirmative to go for a true relationship till the end of time seeing both of us involved from a distance yet so churned twists in it. I luv her in all way. But here I want to say I dunno know if I m in true luv o wadeva called as luv at first sight. Notice to ma GFs! Gurls play safe. Don’t take it personally. I still feel it confusing if its luv, I mean true luv to her. So stay in peace. M still yours till now. I mean till this moment. Whatever! But can’t say hence forth. Ha ha ha ha! I know m dickhead! Afta the first time of the play I was eager to see HER back. Alas ! she came back on stage. I was relieved! I wanted her badly. I like her so much! It feels she had the same feeling too. Just cozza lookin her smile at me. I admired her open heartedly! But this time she hadn’t have her “NATH” tucked to her nose. Still she appeared so freaking gorgeous. Really very pure, innocent, complete! I was feeling uncomfortable to make any kinda signal to her. But I dared anyhow. I signaled her while she stared at me as if where was her nose ring I mean her ‘nath’ with the help of ma hands n fingers. Man she absorbed it so smoothly. As soon as the second turn of the play ended, I was again waiting for her to come on stage. Those five to seven minutes were really killers. As soon as I herd the announcement of the start of the play I jumped to ma usual place of standing n lookin for her. I wanted to check if she really was noticing me or just playing widh the eyesight of hers. I was nervous to know if she had worn the ‘nath’ this time o not. It was going to define whole lot complexions between us. It was going to prove if we really shared a world of our own in those two days o not. It meant a lot to me though. But when I saw, she was back on stage, I was welcomed widh a deep flourishing smile from her accompanied widh the beautiful ‘nath’ placed on the left side of her nose. It felt so sweet. Really so pacifying at heart. I think I can guess if I m in love this time. I want it to be TRUE LUV THIS TIME! Lord Ganesh please listen to me this time. I felt to go n kiss her gently for being ma silence lover for the two days, n I promise I wont forget her till the end of ma life. I still have goose worms remembering her. She looked so many times at me. N so I did. I wish never comes an end between her n me. I sorta luv that gurl. M proved she loves me too. This aint one sided traffic. I want to talk to her. I want to caress her. I want to make her mine. FOREVER !

whorl whorl whorl !

"ha ha ha ha ha ha i dunno !"thats ma favourite words bout everything.......bout life... bout gurls.... bout money....bout troubles...bout....ummmm i dunno ! ha ha ha ha nways today i got a call from an unkown no. as usual... guess... yeah it was a gurl asusual again ! ha ha ha her name's Dishadisha kulkarni. nice sweet voice.. bit of encrypeted words. i had yelled at her for givin miss calls without knowin whose no. it is. she wasbit of shattered hearin ma cranking tone. later she accepted her mistake n asked if i cud be her frnd. i was quite amazzed how gurls change topicso there after. GURLS are WEIRD. i was affirmative to her open frndship as usual of any gurls open relation. Later talkin to her felt she's too ritualistic.i think too much of it. har ek baat main BHAGWAN. at the end she sounds sumthin different. nice way of goin into frndship. he he he ! saala bhukha darinda ! hey ram..... sare ladkiyon ke wrong no.s mere hi no pe aane hain kya .... puk gaya hoon ... still it feels better.... who doesnt want to talk to gurl.. ! though gurls r brainless.... i mean most of them. ok ok about disha, she is sumthin weird i mean specifically she is ummm well... she sounds pandora's box. quite an appealin SEXY voice! fuck m again on ma track..... BHAGWAN main kab sudhrunga ??nways, i rest in PEACE again ! thnx almighty LORD !

I may never see tomorrow, there's no written guaranteeand things that happened yesterday belong to history.I cannot predict the future, I cant change the past.I have just the present moment, I must treat it as my last.I must use the moment wisely, For it soon will pass awayAnd be lost to me forever, As a part of yesterday.I must exercise compasion, Help the fallen to their feet.Be a friend to the friendless, Make an empty life complete.I may not have another chance, On bended knee to pray,And thankgod with humble heart for giving me the day.

BEST STATEMENT

Everyone comes alone, grows alone, struggles alone, victors alone, cries alone,smiles alone, lives alone, dies alone ! It's sympathetic to look for partner in life in all dimensions of it !

S.O.S ! God damn it !

"First Time i felt gud for ur drinkin habit..atleast i came to kno wat i meant 4 u..nothing..yeah hard to digest 4 me..but yup u said it atlast..afta dat i was still waitin for ua call whole nght.. i ws ready 2 wait for u goin against ma parents..bt nw wat if i cm 2 kno dat, fr whm i was ready to do nething COUNTS me nothing.. m cryin for a person who dun like 2 kno m cryin..BT M STILL CRYIN WAITIN N READY C DO DIS WHOLE LIFE..DATS WAD D TRUTH IS BUDDY "
NOW THATS A message definin ma behaviour widh THE girl. i dun deserve a relationship ! dats wad really feel now.

Man, just touched sofa after headin from Nasik. It was an awesome journey. Tonnes of happenings. i had gone there on 4th and today is d 6th. nice way of changin life's casualistic normal schedule.i was so eager to see one of ma close friend "Amrita" coz i dun even remember weh had i seen her last. i guess it feels like ages... yeah ages. felt gud seein her after such long time ! but the worst part of it,i was drunk ! Man, i drink like hell. there has to be a pause now. but cant help. nways life's gud though.meetin Amrita felt sumthing different. i mean, i dunno.... she's ..um...well she's nice. actually she's betterthan any gurl i have seen on this planet so far. quite a brainy one. she defy's the rule "gurls are either beautiful O' intelligent ". yup really she does. nice human being too ! Hey i met her on a gr8 occasion,i mean it was frndship day. what a kool timing of meetin after gap. bhoy... i luv ma life for this. okhey..okhey.. i still remember what i hafto post here, i.e i lost ma wallet, the 5th time in this life.i m such a irresponsible character. what's gonna happen with me ? wen m i goin to be more careful ? still, bhoy it happens in life. i mean its okay. though i lost eleven hundred bucks plus two credit and 5 debit cards. MAN i've LOST THE PAN CARD TOO.... thats worst ! also the mobile cell phone operator card,business cards, college I.D., girls photographs, life's self earned money first transaction record :(,Ohhhhh i dun want to recollect what else have i lost. It hurts man..... It does hurt a lot ! freakin deep !nways its gud whatever comes outta life. I just hope it falls in the hands of the needy ! Hey God, i'm just talkin bout the CASH.. i'm sorry but i've already blocked the cards. he he he. that's fuckin painin JOKE.Hmmm...returnin back from nasik was a gud journey. i borrowed sum cash from cousin, then got the ticket for dhule.it was same, old , fussy journey by state transport bus. it was so annoyin. i dunno but i got sumthing in ma head. i still dunno what it really was. i beared the bus till a town called CHANDWAD. i got down there. had a cup of tea. walked a little, enjoyed the climate. n hey m proud of maself for wad i did next. actualy its a fourlane road now. i had a stance on opposite ends of the road for the traffic n as soon as i got chance, i did PEE on the middle of the road. it feels so comfortableto enjoy these sorta things under open sky. just like snaggergots dipped into melted cheese. then i took lift from truck drivers.those were brand nu TATA trucks. i mean it was just the chasis of truck what i was sittin ON ! airwaves thumped on my face from every possible direction. i still remember the air massage on ma ass from the back of the chasis. WOW it was so lively to enjoy the same old fuckin road by a nu way ! it seemed a whole nu destination. i continued till a village called Umranewhen they truck drivers halted there for lunch. again i went there widh a cup of tea n later again on road widh a thumb up for lift !i stuck maself to a autorickshaw to MALEGAON. it was 37 kilometers journey. here i was enjoyin it atfirst but later i wished if ma buttocks had a layer O' two of cushions ! it got sore so early. man m still havin goosers thinking of it. then from malegaon i boarded a car till way back home. i dunno want to describe the last pit stop... ha ha ha ha it was horrible, yet electrifying ! the whole journey was so brilliant, i mean i never saw so lushy counties of the same road earlier. it was drizzlin in between n so refreshing.. felt like i just dusted ma life with a natural impact ! i luv it... i completed the 154 km journey in record 7hrs 30 mins ! Aint i FANTABULOUS ? oh yeah simply moron !

The White DREAM.

The White Dream !Man, what should i say bout that ? m shattered to tell what kinda freakish dreams i have started to get.Life is like no job as of now, "cherished" break up, bit of more dopes, enjoyin soul bein at home ! So it all began with the break up thing. She lasted for all big five months. i dun want to talk bout her, coz itwill again clarify that i was always wrong ! she's really cute, adorable gurl. actually she was really sumone my type ! i dunno where things went wrong, O' it's like i dun want to kno where n why i went wrong ! b'coz it's always ME, who mess up things : ( It was really hard to cope up with the breakup thing with HER. i never had thought of it. But asusual life always brings what u don't want. She's really gud human being. What i think is i cranked out 80 % n she topped with the remainin 20 % of the misunderstandings ! but......... c'mon its all over. i gotta move on. MAY BE SHE WAS NOT MEANT FOR ME. May be i was not suitin her lifestyle. may be we both were irritatin eachother unknowingly. Nah the last MAY BE could never be the reason for trundle of troubles ! Nways, now bout the dream. I see myself on a small, very small circular island made up of WHITE sand. bluish green water surrounds the circumference. n the bounds of the island are fenced with jail like chain links. It's still so cold to see myself held on that island.And now comes the worst part of it. To feel more like hell i see a bigger island just beside where i was. The realterror strikes now. i saw all my EXs standin in a semi circle show me the midfinger. I was really slogged away bytheir deep peirceing stances. every single gurl now was with life partner o' so called same dumb person like themselves ! @#*@ phew...! why all of a sudden all of them came to see me in my dream. i was sweatin like ruffled towel. Nways, ahead i saw HER. Yes, i mean the recent one. she too was with someone else ! Now this for sure felt me like i was being stuffed to put on for a barbecue. IT DID HURT man. BIG time ! ! i dunno why. but u kno its the dream. so it had to hurt me. I just kept starin both of their hands holdin eachothers. Man this dream really hurt me. when i tried to come close to her to speak i was broken to hear something from her. SHE states me as the biggest loser. i accept it without a jerk ! the last words from her before i woke up were," It's so wierd to SEEthis MORON again". "i thought GOD wouldnt make me see this jerk one more time to feel cursed real hard in life. " Man i couldnt believe SHE really did say those words for me ! nways the end comes near now. Everybody moves in whites around me with their Midfingers quite upright towards me. n I find most ALONE of a lifetime. !!i really think i'm never gonna cherish so called a word "partnership" in this life ! hushhhh...... man i have really started gettin CHILDISH dreams.. time to say the verdict : LOVE AINT FOR ME.IT'S HECTIC. IT'S COMPLICATED. IT'S A LOT MORE FURIOUS THAN IT SEEMS ! really not ma cup of tea.
Remember me whenever you see a sunrise,Remember me whenever you see a star,Remember me whenever you see a rainbowOr woods in autumn colors from afar.
Remember me whenever you see the rosesOr seagulls sailing high in a sky of blue.Remember me whenever you see wavesShining in the sun.And remember, I'll be remembering you!
Remember me whenever you see a teardrop,Or meadows still wet with the morning dew.Remember me whenever you feel loveGrowing in your heart.And remember, I'll be remembering you!

Wow it's been a festive called as "GATORI AMAWASYA". nothin more like it. u kno its like a ban for drinkin n eatin non veg for a whole month called as "SHRAVAN" accordin to hindu calender in INDIA. So, bein a hindu i gotta follow it anyhow ! i feel it difficult to ban drinkin for a whole month. But still considering m just 21 it says its OK to ban for a single whole fuckin month. The contradiction is m just 21 n ma statements doesnt mean i drink every single fuckin DAY. it just means i cant drink weneva i felt to ! Nways its 12:30 AM 2'nd August'08.... n actually the gatori amawasya has been actually started since 4 Hrs. n the metephor is i haf already Drunk like HELL . the best part is m HOME Mom's home father's home. everybody is home n still m DRUNK.. the best of all is no one NO one knos m fuckin DRUNK ! U kno life says m just fuckin outta college, done widh GRAD n got brand Nu wings to FLy in this world ! i dunno wad M gonna do afta ma grads in this fuckin whore kinda world.. still i believe i m gonna survive ANYHOW at the TOP. i feel weneva m put into bad situations, i fight, i struggle, i sumtimes vacate, but find it enough gud to be on top at the END. in ma whole fuckin life wad i haf come to kno is, i haf never invested in right O' proper begnin, but always into finishing touches!thats for sure. i never comply widh how does it start rather than how does it ENd. end always haf a gud point to DEBATE ! it tells u the whole holy shit bout the complicansy of the situations. James blunt's 1973 is gettin me into sum gud mood of writing ! i dunno Y but i luv this GUY. blunt james blunt. really always tries to put sum nu crap of this as same stale as hitlers mess.No one can tell whad a stuff he can come up widh.. thats wad life goes intrestin wen no one knos wads one is gonna come up widh. U kno m drunk n i too kno m drunk....so it doesnt comply widh the rules wad i shud write o wad i m writin in this fuckin tale like POST. It feels gud though to c later how i write afta bein whole trunk size drunk !Ma life is total FAIR like as of now. meetin old mates, loads of PINTS, loads of outdoor eatings. parents sorta gud health, mine gud health, things goin smooth as old RUSSIAN VODKA ! wad the HELL can i ask more for ?as most of the GRADS i feel i lack is money problem. i wish if i had sum more ten thousands of bux to spend left afta ma tution fees bein paid at any fuckin specific unversity.Rite now i want to Post grads into fields of software technology o either into fields of geneti engineerin considering of biochemistry o biofuckintechnology, but i dunnnnnnnn haf enopugh " FUNDS" to flourish ma self wid ma own priorities. i sumtimes awkwardly feel SACHIN TENDULKAR OR SAURAV GANGULY shud some up widh providin widh sum financial AIDS to students like me who wish to soar up in the high skies. No worries i'll later return them the amounts wad i need rite now. but atleast the shud feel like promotin the nu age students to fulfill their dreams. atleast they haf got so much to spare. phewwwwwwwwwww... forget it y shud i think of sumone's help to glitter up ma own career. its ma own thing n i gotta kick up ma self anyhow to claim it as of ma OWN career. i really want to be a SELF MADE MANas i haf always BEEN ! i WANT to earn ma own RADO, ma own OMEGA. seein back i feel m rite on track, just a few furious delicate moments of life to take care of. else everything will run on ma OWN WISH..... SO life u betta WATCH, KID'S on ua pursuit ! ha ha ha ha ha i luv maself so much ! so fuckin.......muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !

I dunno how to Behave !

This is sumthin i really dunno how to react... the thing is rite now i just ended widh ma final semister tests n m all on meetin all ma relatives, cousins, frnz. so the problem is i feel it hard to recollect how to behave widh them. i feel they'll be shocked to see the drastic "CHANGE" in ma behaviour. i really feel strange to present maself infront of them like d way i was before three years. so i m usually tryin to act as DUMB as possible like earlier. i haf started laughin on d plainest jokes thrown at me. i feel m unorthodoxically gone serious, but still i'm tryin to behave how i was before i left everybody.. i feel LIFE's confusing me n i m confusing maself a lot actually !
Help me GOD, to find d older TILU !

My WISH

I have this wishTo feel the face, I looked ontoEvery moment I felt low.To touch the fineness, of the formWhich comforted my fearsTo hold hands, warm and tightWhat moulded my ideasI have this wishI could blink my eyesYet see you clearAs if you never faded off my subconsciousYou got me out through the worst phases of my lifeYou talked me out through my greatest mistakesYou thought otherwise when I said am not worth itI asked you to leave, instead you stayed backAll from a boundary of worldly sayingsI have this wishTo be touched by your energiesI want you to stayAs my condition followsTo emerge from the shackles of your bound inhibitionsHeart in heart, I want you to leaveThe intangible truth, lying in the demarcationThat stays foever, tagged to the wishWhich I always will long....

Dancin in the rain !

Dancing in the Rains
The eyes stared back at meWhile I was enjoying the breezeThat was hitting my faceAnd the rains cameAlong with thundering stormsPainting the sky purple and black huesI jumped with the first drop on my handAnd after a little reluctanceJoined the people dancing in the rainsI danced till the cold hit my spineTill my feet ached with numbnessAnd I shivered with want of getting warmthEverything started reacting slower and anesthetizedBut the mind was functioning like a machineSeeming never to stop thinking and believingI never liked rainsAs it made my mood somberBut i needed to wash some guilt off meAnd I needed to wince in happinessOf releasing the painI needed to live a new lifeAll by starting over againAnd doing things I feared or dislikedLittle moments of enjoying myselfLittle moments of celebrating myselfI smiled a bit and let the eyes stare back at meWishing tomorrow rains do comeAnd I soak myself inside outAs have imaginedFrom the day I lost a friend

Bhoy so finally i've got ma LOVE for this very OWN LIFE !!!!

Man i cant even believe m in love for the SECOND time in this life ! nways i dun count on times for being in love but yeah this is for sure TRUE LOVE... She is so innocent, so PURE, so DAMN GORGEOUS ! Most of the times i wonder if she does DESERVE a MORON like ME ! but LOVE is BLIND as well as DUMB....... but m so happy widh her entrance in ma life.... i have learnt so many things for HER. She's been like GODDESS of Serenity to me. She has stopped ma FAGS, MA drinx ! she's gettin me rite back on track of Happy life ! i dunno wad shud i call her, an angel o a saviour. but the only thing i find bout her is i really cant live WITHOUT her bein apart from her....i have hurt her infinite times but still she doesnt catch her nerves bout ma mistakes. Man she just forgives me blindly without considerin m a BLUFF. i haf spoken a million lies to her, but still she holds me tight as her MAN. i dunno Y ! no, actually i kno y does she hold a FUCKER like me. its all due to LOVE. m HAPPY to be called LOVE STRUCK.... and more o less m so much delighted for bein in so holy relationship widh a GURL called .
I LOVE u ....i promise u I ll BE there FOR U TILL Ma LAST BREATH.

Dat d only preparation i had for NU YEAR CELEBRATIONS !

i think d picture says it all !

I need to be AWARE !

I am really my list of ADDICTIONS:
1. Too much time surfing internet than ever
2. Too much of "thinkin"
3. Goin to rash on the bike
4. Too much of Tea
5. Unnecessary Spendings
6.Holdin ''emotions"

... disgusting things!

Love bites are achieved by sucking on some poor soul's neck almost hard enough to draw blood... apparently as a sign of affection.
The rumour that the application of toothpaste to the wound aids recovery is a myth. You just smell of toothpaste for the remainder of the day.
The only way to hide these hideous marks is to cover your self either in Concealer or wear polo necks for the duration of the affliction. This can be a couple of days or, if you are dating Dracula, several weeks.
This is a sackable offence... and very unhygienic.

The secret of happiness !

Route plan to happiness...
Embracing optimism...
Be tolerant of others...
Establish support...
Taking control...
Respect yourself...
Be always curious...
Talk with the spirit...
Stay healthy...
Enjoying work...
Managing money...
Giving pleasure...
Avoiding envy...
Find someone to love...
ENJOYIN SEX !...
Children when you want...
Sharing a dream...
Overcoming fears...
Overcoming the fear of death...
Being confident...
Play...
Luck...
Strive for something...
Succeed in something...
Know yourself...

WHEN THE THINGS GO WRONG..

Temptation...
A death...
Lost love...
Lost respect...
Ill health...
Depression...
Injustice...
A light at the end of the tunnelPlan to stay happy

Dark Seasons of the Soul !

I remember the phone call quite clearly: I'd phoned in sick to my (hellish) workplace that morning because I couldn't leave the house again. Instead of the boss, it was a fellow workmate who answered the phone. I didn't get much of a chance to speak.
'Oh is that you Suzy? Let me guess, you're not coming in... as usual.'
Just a simple sentence, but those words stung me to the core. My inherent unworthiness had been noticed. I couldn't hide it anymore. People weren't prepared to put up with my s**t any longer. I had no right to be paid. So I did the only thing I could. I put the phone down and curled up into a foetal position in bed. The curtains were drawn and they would stay drawn all day. This had become my life.
I used to wonder if I was really depressed at all - if I hadn't just convinced myself of it in order to get attention. A person cannot be a friend to his or herself feeling like that. After so much punishment from outside and in, the body and psyche buckle. Life becomes one long damage limitation exercise. The isolation builds gradually, and people drift away. I couldn't bear the humiliation of just sitting there with nothing to say, so I gave up meeting my friends or going out. I couldn't tell my parents - I didn't want them to worry.
But the paradox was, I did want them to worry. I'd already envisioned how my funeral would be and had even chosen the music. They would regret not having had sufficient time to spend with me. They would be sorry about my upbringing. For a long time I had been screaming, 'somebody do something!' in my own way. And no one had answered. They had just carried on being happy, living, working, achieving things. It was a bus I couldn't catch. I felt I was hammering on a one-way mirror - soundproof; and clear enough to show other people's glories, whilst rendering my own desires invisible.
First the reading stopped. I'd always been an avid reader but now my books were gathering dust. They spoke of meaningless things, and it was hard to concentrate anyway. I was distracted by unwanted thoughts, often very abstract but unbelievably painful that would come at the worst possible times. I remember I once felt sorry for a chocolate rabbit because it was about to be eaten. I didn't know such extreme sensitivity was possible. All my senses were assaulted - sounds became magnified and traumatic, yet taste and touch dulled.
It was much easier to live in a vacuum when stimulus became painful. No phone calls were allowed and I made my very first 'Do Not Disturb' sign. Of course I hated the cowardly measures I took. I hated myself enough to physically attack myself. It seemed to make sense, translating the invisible pain to visible wounds. Other times I would fancy that I might contract cancer, there'd be no shortage of sympathy then. The news would make me cry. How could there be hope for anybody with war, famine and pestilence scourging the planet on a daily basis? How could I expect any help when so many people were much worse off than me?
I decided to leave my job. I couldn't bear the social contact, and was ill-equipped to deal with the pressure. I cursed myself for fleeing, even if it was a survival technique. But I did survive. Only now have I been able to identify what it was that triggered a recovery.
Despite my best efforts to ignore it, the Sun shone outside. I had been voluntarily housebound for weeks so I went out into the garden to get some air. There was a rake leaning against the wall and I took it with me without really thinking.
It was spring, most definitely, and translucent green threads were pushing up through the ground. I used the rake to comb through weeds and unearthed a violet.
It felt like I'd never seen a Violet before: and I hadn't much interest in gardening. But I'd seen them in books and this one was quite perfect. I studied it for a long time enjoying the contrast of purple with dark glossy green. Then I thought there might be more. By the end of the day I had raked over the entire garden: without even meaning to or having thought about it much. I just acted on a seed of an idea, and it had grown into a very agreeable result. I know if someone had asked me to do it I would have refused. I would have been too tired... or would I?
I grew up close to nature. I knew never to trust any psychic that expected payment, to love thy neighbour. I identified seasons by their smells, rather than dates. I climbed trees and made dens. I was a country kid cast adrift in the city, and I'd never even realised how much I was missing home. All I seemed to remember were the bad things that I felt had shaped my personality. Under the microscope, brain cells resemble branches of trees and it is my personal belief that they develop in the same way. A mature tree when struck by lightning may lose a branch but the superstructure of the tree is not affected. If a sapling is struck then the tree grows malformed. Say this sapling has grown into three main branches, one for 'motor skills', one for 'mental skills' and one for 'emotional skills'. Lightning strikes the 'emotional skills' branch. The other branches continue to grow and spread. 'Motor skills' separates out into 'walking', 'crawling' and 'playing' branches and later on into 'writing' and 'dancing'. 'Mental skills' branches out into 'numerical' and 'spatial awareness', but what happens to the 'emotional skills' branch? It doesn't grow and its range of complexities are denied. The 'self-esteem' branch isn't there, nor the 'fulfillment' one. I firmly believe that traumas in early childhood, as the mind is forming, have a significant impact on one's emotional responses later in life.
Does this mean that there is no hope? I used to think that it did. But one can always plant seeds and hope for the best. It is in the nature of the seed to grow. It requires very little to grow. I resolved to plant good seeds in my own mind. Just little things. I allowed myself a feeling of achievement each time I did the washing up. It took some time to convince myself that it meant anything. There was something very comforting about putting things into order, maybe a feeling of slight control. I didn't do it for the interest factor, more so that I could say I had set out to do something and had done it.
So, through starting small, gradually my self-respect increased. Of course, there were still days where I thought it wasn't helping at all, that I would never achieve anything, that I was again deluding myself. But then I would catch sight of glasses sparkling by the sink, the newly dug garden outside, and there was no arguing then - yes, I really had done those things. And what was more, whilst doing them I had not had a single depressive thought. I couldn't berate myself for wasting space any more. If we consider that the mind works very much on a use it or lose it basis, I was using the good seed I had planted and it was flourishing.
The analogy of the tree is not an easy one to understand. Perhaps I am the only one who will ever benefit from it, but when I made the connection I did feel healed. It became my mantra. I had buried myself away from the light, but nature would not be denied. It cannot be winter forever. Nature has much to teach us !

m really called an enigma ba ma frnds !

yeah really ! n i kno Y !

WOW this song'z kool !

Summer has come and passed The innocent can never last Wake me up when September ends

Like my father's come to passed Seven years has gone so fast Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again Falling from the stars Drenched in my pain again Becoming who we are As my memory rest But never forgets what I lost Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed The innocent can never last Wake me up when September endsRing out the bells again Like we did when spring begain Wake me up when September ends

Here comes the rain again Falling from the stars Drenched in my pain again Becoming who we are As my memory rest But never forgets what I lost Wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed The innocent can never last Wake me up when September endsLike my father's come to passed Twenty years has gone so fast

Wake me up when September ends Wake me up when September ends Wake me up when September ends !

I regret bein a Human !

After a few days Indian republic day is about to come. n again we r about to c d false patriotism of Indians ! m very doubtless about this "happenin". When its gonna be 26 of Jan, everyone will be full of enthusiasm, dyin to die for country, ready widh long long slogans, widh nu resolutions for d society, everyone will be proud of a Armed forces ! But as soon as d day turns out n d calender shows 27th of Jan. i m so sure that i am goin to see many of Indian tricolour on streets, in dustbins, lyin on lawns, roadside shrubs !
i m really anxious wen is this temporary "Indianess" is gonna stop. y don't v feel d same proud throughout d year. y dunt v respect anthem everytime v listen to it ? y only on 26th of Jan n on 15 th of Aug Only ! there's a lot to write today bout this issue but i need a cigrette to feel normal , rite now. will continue again in a while.

intelligent ones !

These r two ads i came across today n found them really intelligent.

slogan for d first ad is : "Save Trees n Trees Save !"

n d second one is about : "Sugarfree Lollipop!"

M ill after long time...

Oh ma god ma stomach is in sever pain. n i dunno wad m i doin bein online since m all down due to d pain. its been almost 9 n half months i had sufferef any illness. no energy, no hope, no activeness, nothin feels gud. but still its gud to fall ill after pretty gud time intervals coz it makes u aware of d importance of being fit physically. i m really missin ma healthy equilibrium. its just one day, m sufferin this. it feels like m down since almost much longer period than just one single day. Hope i ll make up early. i have been takin care of all possible things i need to take care of. going for a liquid diet...no roamin out..medicine prescriptions...blah blah blah. god make me fit ASAP.

bhoy wad a start !

2008 has knocked ma door n look wad a start i haf got ! man its just d 5 day of this nu year n i haf already got 3 more 'NU' proposals from gurls !
i dunno wad kinda start i shud consider this. but anyways its in positive way. n one more thing man i ll be graduating this year ! bhoy, m really on Cloud nine ! bhagwaan uthale mujhe, i cant take anymore.