hmm i dunno wad m doin rite now in ma life is gud or considered normal or considered bad, but i did d best ever thing in ma life today ! m feeling a weird type of peacefulness today ! a name AKSHAY is added to ma character. just a five year old kid but his eyes r so enchanting, this boy has sumthin , sumthin extraordinary n wen u interact widh him u can surely feel d rush of goodness in ur adultarated viens. i didnt kno how i did this thing today, just was feelin blue n this greyness of ma life has gifted me this little kid. i spent almost five n a half hours widh him. it didnt give me a feeling dat it was ma first time meet widh widh this kid. he fondly kept callin me "CHAITA.....CHAITA", it means brother brother in malyalam.
6,200 rs dats d only amount i spent for a child's secure n proper growth for one year. usually i used to spent money to buy maself happiness... i used go shoppin to feel gud. at d end i still recognise i never felt happy frm inside. its just a materialistic success n nothin else ! u r put in convent school, then u go for best college, then best university, then u get a gud job which pays u widh fat cheques ! but is this d only shit we r grown up to haf, to earn , to be proud of ?????
Wads d real meanin of existence ? lookin inside if i ask ma self, born as a human how many things haf i done in ma life to let me feel real HUMAN ? from 21 yrs of this life , "just ONE" comes d answer.
m really puzzled, which way to choose. One leadin too glamourous, materialistic success. n d other i dunno !
But thing is sure, d name AKSHAY 's really gonna change ME.
