Why the melancholy comes in this form ?

Friend in need is friend INDEED ! Doesn't this smell of 'diplomacy'. No its called 'symbiosis' in terms of world. When I was away, far far away from my friends, I was desperate to get back near to them. I revisited my thinking and tried to hold as much as I could with the old acquaintances. But I found something messy about their thinking. Their view is terrible. The characters are quite complex. It seems a whole stinking mentality. When I was there without any cause I was 'being' cherished. I was being 'enjoyed' for the company. I was kept busy with false impressions of compatibility. I never betrayed of being what I'm not. I was always what I'm. But all of a sudden I'm forced to absorb the truth. And I'm damn glad to come across the real identity. the real perception. I was convicted of being "Diplomat", a fucking DIPLOMAT ! I was hurt actually I admit I was hurt real bad because the persona whom I was holding tight were actually present for symbiotic existence ! ha ha ha I'm now much more relaxed about knowing the real qualities of them. When I asked in what way I smelled like a diplomat, they were unable to explain the meaning of diplomat ! what a pity ! I was left funny alone to consider shallow waters the DEEP one. Man, whatever you see aint the clearer side. It is disillusioned to look different. I'm quite calm to know the real depth of persons whom I was proudly "friends".I wouldn't have invested time to think about this relationship, but it meant something for me. Thus, couldn't let it go so easily. Te mhantat na,'jithe vishwas asto tithech ghaat hoto','jithe dushkaal asto tithech terawa kalmadto','JITHE JAWALIK ASTE TITHECH TADA JAU SHAKTO'.....ani shevti to gelach !

Places matter for me. this got no connection to what I'm feeling n posting but it does fucking relate. Bangalore got me personalities with maturity, courageous lives...Here in Pune, It sucks big time man.. You'll sparely find someone speaking words without any fear, to b straight 'to tell on face' ! At the end GLAD  to LOOSE sticky relationships..