Man... m bankrupt...lost girlfriend...lost house..excuse me, situation's not dat bad. i still have a house to live in. but sumwhere i feel everything is going bad, really BAD.Asusual i dunno where m i progressing in ma life rite now. Wait a minute, m i progressing? Dickhead me, very stagnant currently ! I've lost intrest in everything. Everyshit of life seems so dull to me. GREY's everywhere. May be winters inn,dat may be d reason. But a Very no to dat if its d reason. Blueness is in me n not d winter. i feel i need to accept, i m a pessimist ! Yes i m...
Till now since childhood i used to convince maself dat i m not a pessimist...it was sumtimes i used feel low..dat doesnt mean so.. but now i totally feel i m a hard core pessimist ! but i find it a little diffenrent being a pessimist. i haf seen so many Black n white photographs full of meaning.This tells me to use this grey side of ma life into a productive passage of time. i hope i make it possible this time. now-a-days "success" seem a alien word to me. everything i do, i feel, i sense, i get is nothtin but a mere failure. : (
Nways its yet another phase of ma bullshit life full of nothin special but loads of ass sloggin experiences !
